fredag 16 oktober 2009

On my own, and now I need your support

Since yesterday I've had to get used to the idea of no longer being supported by a steady pay check every month. Yesterday evenin I was still wondering how come I don't feel anxious nor sad. I realized I'm so over this job since long time, that I can only rejoice in what's happened. No, I can't tell you how well I'll be doing. I know it'll be well, anyhow.

What I can tell you is please just be positive and supporting. I KNOW it's not going to be a walk in a park. But I'm not afraid of hard work. What dreads me is the thoughtless minds of people who wish to care, but succeed in nothing but discomforting me by telling how sad sad, anxious etc. I MUST be, and that it will be tough on me now.

Hey, I KNOW the times are tough and that I'll spend hours and hours looking for and chasing clients, and working my ass off literally. But I'll be working for ME, for my benefits. For my own happiness. Nobody needs to remind me of any of the hard facts. I KNOW! All I want from anyone at this point is constructive advice that actually will get me somewhere and peptalk. If I need a shoulder to try on I'll find one. Unless I call for anything else, support me. If you can't do that, please just leave me be. This is the most all-consuming, all-altering thing ever happened to me, and the biggest change of my life. I want to be happy about it, and move on towards all the wonderful things awaiting me after January 15th.

6 kommentarer:

Ulrika sa...

I'm fully convinced you're gonna make it just fine :)
Determination is the key word.

PrincessGaia sa...

Dont forget that not all ppl is telling you "you should be sad" but tells you that "you need to enjoy and understand why you should be happy." Its easy to mix if your pissed at ppl saying the opposite and when you actually get to hear what you want you dont take it for what it is ;)

This is the push forward you needed, everyone knowing you atleast a little knows that you will do even better in the future. The chains is off..enjoy life, embrace this opportunity...fully *hugs*

Lisa sa...

Honestly, you have no reason to be sad. Sure, it's tough being self-employed, but what's the alternative? Being a wage slave in a job that leaves you feeling unfulfilled and keeps you from living your dream? Doesn't sound like an option to me...

You're taking this challenge, and it sounds more like a kick in the rear to get you from dream to reality, to Living the Dream, manifesting it. And you will! I have absolutely no doubt about that.

Wise friends have taught me to leave the "how" of a situation to the Universe, the Divine or what you choose to call it, and instead focus on manifesting what you want to create. To live the dream is to make it happen. It truly is the power of the mind...

Callisto Nightshade sa...

I like Nike's 'Just do it'.
I decide my direction and head that way. How I'll move on between each goal remains to be seen. But I have not yet experienced proof that a will strong enough could be defeated. This is the challenge of my life. And I am more than happy to get on with it.

Dåcktor Erik sa...

No worries, you'll make it just fine.

You have better things waiting for you in the future, might be smaller, bigger, different things but they will be better. Everyone who knows you know it too.
Your feelings are yours and yours alone. Trust them.

Callisto Nightshade sa...

Thanks, Dr Erik. :)

Thanks all of you. Your support is really what I need at this point.